Remorse

I just read ate Juliets letter. Up to now, I still feel remorseful. As a matter of fact, I feel very guilty.

I am one of the staff of pastor Noel last camp, unfortunately a bad cold and flu hit me and disabled me from doing almost anything. So I decided not to join the camp. When I called to inform Pastor Noel, a co-staff answered the phone and told me that Pastor Noel is in a bad condition and is in the hospital. Di ako mapakali… The next day, it was the day of the camp, I leardned that Pastor Noel s gone. I cried. I cried like a child. I felt a deep guilt inside me, I felt that I abandoned Pastor Noel and the project Genesis team.

Hanggang ngayon, I feel very guilty. I miss Pastor Noel. He became a bestfriend of mine. Everytime we meet for our monthly BS, he always leave a strong thought in my mind, and a good smile in my face. I cant believe that that’s not going to happen anymore. He was the one who started to call me ‘kape’. No one’s going to start that bullying on me anymore. Up to this day, whenenver I got to think about him, I cry. I know it might sound gay, but I really do cry for him. Even in public.

But I know that he is in Gods prescence now, and if he’s here to talk to me, I know that what he will tell me to be brave and strong, dont feel down for Gods plan for everyone is for the good.

Why?

Its been quite a while, after a month or two, my mind is starting to feel nothingness, my body also. I have been inactive for ages that my brain almost forgot how to grab a pen (a keyboard) and write (and type). I missed writing, and now, I guess Im just doing what Ive missed.

'Ideas' becoming 'plans' turning into 'actions' making a 'situation'. After months of contemplating, something triggered my mind to write again. A powerful word that can make a person die, make a community suffer and even make a country fall. What word? POVERTY.

Manix Abrera once said in his comic book: madami na daw nagugutom ngaun, pero kung tutuusin eh hindi talaga sila nagugutom, bakit? kasi wala na silang concept ng 'busog', di na nila naranasang magkaroon ng sapat na pagkain sa katawan nila, kaya normal na ang 'gutom' sa kanila, wala na silang concept ng 'gutom' kasi wala na silang concept ng 'busog'. - Which is soooo true..

Sadly, nothing's happening.

Rubik’s Cube

Do you know how to solve a rubik’s cube?

Its fun.. After about 5 years.. I managed to solve another rubik’s cube by my self.. thanks to my classmate ‘kuya argel’..

If you havent touched a rubik’s cube before? Give it a try, dont think that its hard.. Its fun.. Really..

anniv..

Its the time of the year again..

Matagal na pala.. Its been two straight years.. Still, my Love for her doesnt change.. Everyday now is like everyday last year.. Nothing is changed.. Or some things are changed, but those changes are for the 'good'..

Now tell me that Im just playing, tell me that Im just exlporing life.. No I dont explore life, I already know what life is.. I already know what love is..

To live without her love is not living at all..

prog-metal

12/8, 15/8, 17/8.. dang! Whats on John Petrucci's mind? He's insane, in a good way..

He inspired me so much, now Its ard for me to play very straight..

Hail the prog -metalist's!!!

I swear, my band will be playing progressive-metal soon..